Hi my name is Precious

Happy Birthday Dad.

I know we aren’t on good terms right now. It’s your birthday and I didn’t call to say happy birthday but instead I’m doing it on tumblr. Lame I know… haha I believe actions speak louder than words and since you don’t even take in consideration about what I have to say. I’m not going to talk to you and not calling you on your birthday I feel like that would get my msg out more clearly. So Happy birthday dad and I hope you can understand how I’m feeling maybe we both need to be understanding. Some may feel like my doings are childish but hey if you try to be mature about situations and ppl don’t hear you out. Frustraution occurs and there’s nothing to do besides keep silent and hope for the person to realize. I know that I’m going to have to deal with life, eventually I’ll get over it cus time heals all wounds. And for you I think you need a reality check and be more reasonable.

I may seem tough but I’m fragile.

I’m the type of person who breaks down and cries silently to myself. I don’t like to burden other people with what I’m going through. I would ask others opinion on things but other than that I keep to myself… Sometimes I act like I don’t care but in actuality it may bother me. It’s so hard to keep everything all in but I feel like it’s better that way. But there’s a lot of things going on in my life and I just don’t know what to do. I greet everyday with a smile and hope that it will enlighten my mood. And make me forget about my problems for a little while.

Ignoring

The whole situation about my dad and his “girlfriend” being pregnant just fucking hit me. Now everytime I think about the situation I start crying. I don’t even know why I cry when it’s something not worth crying over. But I’m disappointed in him. Maybe its just the fact that he wasn’t really there for my sisters and I. He’s taking full responsability for a child he doesn’t even want! Maybe its the fact that he’s gotten older and wants to settle down knowing the fact that he can’t be young forever. Since she’s already there nd she’s pregnant I guess he just had to settle for her. Especially since she’s already up his ass. My gma always told me find someone who loves you more than you love them. Anyways I haven’t talked to my dad since spring break and I don’t want to talk to him. People may think I’m blowing a situation out of proportion or over reacting. But how can I not?! I only have a year left til I go to college and he’s already fucking up our relationship, not saying it was great before. I’m done with this shit though there was already enough family drama he just added more to it. Anways how should I handle this situation?! HELP! :/